14.1.10

Hey, wake up! There's lots of better guy than you. Please don't so selfish

Hello blogger, long time no post ya huehehe. Miss me? Oya, btw HAPPY NEW YEAR YA (telat abis sih haha) Iya maaf2 telat ngucapin 14 hari :P Well, i spend my time in Jogja for the new year eve loh hahahaha. So busy huh? Oke oke go back to the main topic.

Jadi gue lg kesel sm orang. Bukan kesel sih lebih jelasnya lg ya berantem sm orang. Orangnya itu pernah hadir di kehisupan gue. Dia pernah ngisi waktu2 gue (ceilah bahasanya tumben). Tapi gak tau gak jelas apa penyebabnya tiba2 dia begini. Gue sm dia jadi berantem sampe sekarang. Oke mungkin gue vulgar ya ngomongin hal ini di sini tapi gue emang sengaja, kalo lo liat ato temen2 deket lo itu liat, lo bisa tau apa yg gue rasain ke elo sekarang. Terserah apa kata orang, yg penting gue mau cerita ke blog ini sekarang.

Pertama, gue sama elo emang udah sering bgt berantem gini kan? Tiap kali kita abis adem anyem pasti deh kalo ada masalah dikit kita langsung ngejauh gitu dan berasa kayak lagi 'berantem'. Hubungan gue sm lo jg jadi berubah drastis. Jujur, gue gak mau kayak gini. Tapi emang kayaknya kita gak bakal bisa akur lama. Waktu itu aja yg pas lo minta maaf terakhir ke gue itu jg gara2 temen gue kan? Gara2 temen gue udah nyeramahin elo ttg karma2 akhirnya lo minta maaf ke gue. Dan gue maafin karna gue jg gak mau hubungan gue sm lo jadi jauh.

Tapi sekarang apa? Gue sm lo malah berantem gini gak jelas. Tiba2 lo nge remove fb gue & nge unfollow twitter gue. MAKSUDNYA APA? Marah? Kesel? Yaelah gak usah segitunya jg kan. Nih ya jujur aja gue emang pernah nge update di tweet ttg ngejelek2in lo. Tp itu jg gara2 setelah gue liat komen2an lo sm temen gue, Laily. Dan gue gak suka dg kata2 terakhir lo yg bilang kalo gue nge duain elo. Sejak kapan? Sama siapa? Ito? Farhan? Siapa hah?!!! Eh gila, kalo lo emang kesel sm gue, kalo lo emg sebel sm gue, kalo lo emg marah sm gue, gak usah pake fitnah bisa kan? Se benci2nya gue sm elo gue gak pernah ya nge remove elo! Pernah lah ada niat tp gue masih punya hati.

Elo boleh kok nyuruh gue buat introspeksi diri, buat ngerubah sikap, boleeeeh kok. Tapi gue boleh gak minta lo satu aja? Gue gak nyuruh lo buat introspeksi diri, enggak. Karna gue udah tau lo pasti gak bakal ngerti. Gue gak minta lo buat berubah, enggak. Karena gue dari dulu 'suka' sama lo apa adanya. Gue udah nerima keburukan2 elo. Gue cm minta satu. Lo bisa ngertiin perasaan cewek. Seenggak2nya lo dilahirin sm seorang cewek, jodoh lu pasti cewek & lo hidup di dunia ini gak cuma cowok doang tp pasti ada ceweknya. Elo seharusnya bisa ngehargain perasaan cewek. Nyokap lo cewek, adek lo cewek, tante lo cewek, sahabat2 lo juga ada kan yg cewek? Nah lo coba hargain cewek. Jangan seenak pantat bilang maaf tp yg ada malah nyari ribut lg.

Jujur, gue capek kali berhubungan sm lo kalo gini caranya. Gue nyesel pernah punya hubungan sama lo dan gue juga nyesel pernah kenal sm lo dan gue jg nyesel elo pernah hadir di kehidupan gue. Kalo gue punya alat kembali ke masa lalu nya doraemon, gue gak bakal pernah mau kenalan sm elo. Gue capek. Gue capek lo mimta maaf, gue maafin terus kita baikan. Tapi pasti itu jg gak bakal tahan lama. Terus lo minta maaf lg, gue maafin. Tp sekarang? Gue gak tau. Inget kata temen gue, kesabaran gue ada batesnya. Iya, mungkin ini batas akhir kesabaran gue buat elo. Semoga kalo elo ato temen lo baca, lo nyadar. Gak cm gue doang yg nyadar tp lo juga harusnya sadar. Jangan sok deh. Enek jg lama2 liat muka lo. Se sayang2 nya gue se suka2 nya gue sm lo tapi kalo di gituin kesabaran gue abis jg kali.

Makasih ya buat semuanya. Makasih atas apa yg udah lo kasih ke gue dan makasih udah pernah ada di kehidupan gue.




Thanks for everything & bye

21.12.09

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Cory Kennedy

First, got his impression second, got his number and third, got a bad mood

First of all i feel i gotta find you. I can forget him cause you and you're so nice. When you talk, it's just like a smile. You're so sweet erh not sweet but TOO sweet wikikiki melted~ Everyday everytimes at school i saw you and you saw me. I feel happier if i saw you that day. If i'm on bad mood and then i saw you, you make me forget everything what happen so badly at me (ciekeke lebay) but it's true. Oh gosh i can't say anything anymore. My feeling is hard to explain. Hard to be write it down, hard to say it and hard to expression it. I just wondering if i got you and maybe we'll be happy (ok lebay lagi). And then, i got your number from my friend, call it D. I'm so happy, proud, and glad. But my friends told me if i didin't message you first, i'll got any closer with you. So i decided to message you and you reply it but only that words. So i didn't message you anymore until that day. Until now. Until i know what your 'real' feelings about a girl. The others. The other girl. I know, i'm not as preety as her but..... Ah i don't even know her! Well, i remember about all my friends lovestory. For example, about Jupla. She loves "cheese" so much but "cheese" doesn't love her. And lots of people said, "We have to choose where's the best. Is it the person who we love or the person who loves us?" Yep. So lots of people replied, "Choose the person who loves us" But in fact, it's hard. So hard.

I already do that. And i already do to choose the person who i loved. Not the person who loves me. But in fact, that theory is true. If we choose the person who we love, we'll get pain. But if we choose the person who loves us, we won't get pain even hurt it.

Sometimes my mood turned into so mellow. Sometimes i just wanna cry all day but sometimes i wanna laugh a lot even i wanna scream a loud. Louder than a rock star did. I don't know why. I can't imagine that. And from now, i just feel so bored. So bored being single but sometimes i feel i don't wanna have a boyfriend or ya maybe just looking partners.

When i saw him, i want to get him and proud of everything. But when i know what does he feels and who he like, i don't. My bad mood is getting worse on that day. And i told to Ara everything and i almost cry! Then, Ara said that he saw me. He saw me when i was story to her. Why he like gives me the good sign huh? Oh this is why i hate boy so badly!!!!!

Dad, i want this



BlackBerry Gemini

Akhirnya

Finally i can use template! Yes it all because Laily, huehueheue thanks a lot dear nyamnyamuach

Bdg

Last tuesday, i just went to Bandung. My dad had a training in there so me, my mom and my sister look after my dad huehe. Well, it didin't take a long time. I just go for 3 days only guys, hhh. But ya, fun! Look at my photoshot in BandungLook at the sandal. My sister just bought it at Rumah Mode. So cute huh? And btw, i've got a little story about that sandal. Jd kakak gue mau buka lebel sendalnya itu. Nah dia coba kok gak bisa2 dan kayaknya cuma bisa kalo pake gunting. Sedangkan di hotel gua gak ada gunting sm sekali. Yaudah akhirnya gue coba buka. Gak taunya emang susah men. Keras banget. Terus tiba2 nyokap nyoba, dan hasilnya she can do it pals. Ternyata kata nyokap itu kan ada yg bulet2nya itu terus tinggal di puter aja hahaha stupid deh kakak gue sm gue cm ngelongo doang. Padahal liat kan tuh foto2nya? Itu gue nyoba buka tuh haha tp gak bisa2 :(

Well, ini kali ya yg namanya supermom


11.12.09

Remember: Karma always exsist in this life

"This is a selfish world. If you hurt someone, you'll get the karma. And caution: Karma is more painful when someone get hurt because what are you already done to her/him. So when you realize that you already hurt someone you have to get an apology and don't do the same thing because it's hurt. Wondering if you love someone but that person didin't love you as much as you did, hurt right? So be careful in this selfish world."

2010 wish list

I have a lot of wish to do at 2010. Ok, let's start:

1. I wanna move into another school
2. Change my mobile phone. Ini udah rusak tau, masa ga bisa di pakein handsfree padahal handsfree nya gak kenapa-napa. Weird.
3. Got new boyfriend (maunya sih itu tp...)
4. Can forget all my bullshits past
5. Wanna meet my best fashion icon, Diana Rika Sari
6. Got 48kg even 45kg!!!!! Huehe i've to diet but it's too hard :P
7. Taller at least 165cm lah hm
8. Can rewind my past (i need doraemon maybe?)
9. SMARTER like Einstein or Jimmy Neutron

Yep, maybe i can only write this but if i have another plan, i'm sure i'll post it ok.
Smooch,

Wanna scream a loud!!!!!!

Well, a lot of people like him too! Geez, can i get you? You're smile makes me wanna get you....

 
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